Because I have an opinion on everything
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Tonight was the night to catch up with a close friend and discuss our visions for the year. Last year at this time I was really into this idea of clarity. I was on fire. The only problem is that my vision was unclear. I was grasping for clarity, and that clarity only came recently.
And I just realized it tonight.
It was easy for me to outline my goals. Not just goals for this year, but sort of a vision for what I see in the next two or three years. I grabbed a piece of paper and actually saw a plan.
It was a proud accomplishment after the stark realization that my long term goals had become short term goals and then I had accomplished what I had set out to do. It’s scary to be a goal driven person and suddenly realize that you have no goal.
So I had to come up with some goals.
Not because I needed to be doing something but because while I had accomplished my goals, my vision for my life wasn’t actualized. I knew there was more work to do.
I started asking myself: what’s next?
And tonight, I had clarity. About my health, educational, career and creative future. I wrote it down and made it plain. I made the goals measurable and attainable. I even gave myself deadlines for things needing deadlines.
A year ago this was a slog but tonight it was a breeze.
Maybe it was time for me to be clear about my goals this year.
I’m tired. I’ve spent the last five days sorting through nearly a decade of my life and now I’m just tired. Emotionally, drained and simulteneously liberated. Excited and anxious…
I guess I should slow down a little…
For a while now, I’ve been on the hunt for a new place to live. There were several instances of premature excitement followed by subsequent disappointment, but this time its real. I found a flat closer to work, in a quiet little neighborhood in the OC (rolls eyes), with good schools, a fireplace, walk through closet, brand new carpet, paint, counters…everything. Its perfect.
But moving means having to pack; having to go through all the stuff I’ve accumulated for the eight years I’ve been in my current apartment. It’s a sort of deciding what baggage to take with me and what to leave behind. To be honest, I wanted to leave behind as much as possible because with all this transition, there must be something truly wonderful on the horizon. If I take too much baggage with me, I won’t have room.
So the clutter has been cleared and everything pretty much ready to be hauled away. Tomorrow begins a new adventure, a new chapter of my life, if you will. A step further closer to the manifestation of my developing prosperity consciousness. It is indeed a beautiful thing to understand what the bible means when it says, “I wish you would be in good health and prosper as your soul prospers.”
And that is exactly how I feel. As though I am prospering as my soul prospers. There was a time when my phone number changed every few months. Today I have the same cell phone number I have had for just over four years. I have been saving and paying down dept…becoming financially responsible and I am starting to see the rewards of such stewardship.
Tomorrow I move. It is as literal as it is symbolic; a fresh start, a new beginning. I’m a mash of emotions, but one this is certain: I’m going to be sleeping in my new room tomorrow. And what a beautiful sleep it will be.
Yesterday was about taking a time out and today is definitely about yielding. The message of the service at my spiritual community was even about led by the spirit. Really being in tune with the divine wisdom within and simply put, going with the flow.
Funny thing is that I wasn’t as moved by the delivery as my friend seemed to be. It wasn’t until I came home and looked at my word of the day that it hit me. Yielding. Sometimes you just gotta let things happen, rather than trying to force them into place.
Oooops! Missed posting yesterday’s Triple “E” homework…I did however do it. So today, I’ll post both yesterday’s and today’s words. I was far too sleep deprived yesterday to function in the morning…
I had a strange dream on Tuesday night that kept me up past my bedtime and when I woke Wednesday, the word “anticipation” popped into my head. So anticipation was the word for the day. I won’t tell you how I expressed, experienced and enjoyed anticipation, but please trust that I did all three. 
Today’s word is revelation. Goes great with my clarity theme for the year, right? Indeed. Revelation is how clarity can be obtained. So today, I am expressing, experiencing and enjoying revelation.
Funnily enough, my previous post today came as part of a wonderful revelation of a surprise. I also realized that I am not reading enough news and that I need to do more reading to be a better editor. I won’t beat myself up about what brought that revelation on, but it will improve my performance for sure.
I look forward to other ways to either reveal things or have them revealed throughout the day.
Technically, I did the exercise wrong yesterday…I couldn’t find the paper on which I wrote the instructions down. Funnily enough, I made this daily word thing far more complicated than it is. I found it so here’s what I’m doing; it’s called the Triple “E” Challenge.
I had the first part right, to assign a word to the letter of the day (the letters come from the theme word for the year). However, the Triple “E” part is affirming that I will express, experience and enjoy (the process) of whatever the word for the day is.
Today’s word: Lasting
So today I shall make things that should be, lasting. I will experience those things which are lasting and let go of that which is fleeting. I will enjoy the process.
To be honest, I’m not sure what to make of this, but part of my quest this year is for clarity, so I’ll figure it out. For now, I’m clear that somethings are meant to be lasting and others, not so much.
Yesterday I talked about some spirit work I’d be doing this year. Just to refresh your memory, my theme for ‘09 is clarity and each day I will be selecting a word to coincide with a letter from this word, affirm it’s meaning for my day and be open to its properties.
Sorry if it all sounds so abstract and metaphysical…If you’re confused as to what I am talking about, just pay attention, you’ll figure it out after the first couple days.
The word for today is, perhaps serendipitously, consistency. Quite apropos considering that consistency is quite possibly one of by biggest short-comings. I tend to get super enthusiastic and then fizzle out. However, if I am to achieve the goals which I have laid out here.
Consistency (noun):
1. a degree of density, firmness, viscosity, etc
2. steadfast adherence to the same principles, course, form, etc.
3. agreement, harmony, or compatibility, esp. correspondence or uniformity among the parts of a complex thing.
4. the condition of cohering or holding together and retaining form; solidity or firmness.
It seems fairly obvious what spirit is telling me. If I am to attain any real clarity – be it in vision or even in daily activities – I must impose structure on myself and adhere to some sort of program.
I guess it’s a good thing I decided to start this 365 blogging project, ey?
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I was challenged by a friend and mentor to do some self evaluation as I start the new year. We’re meeting in a couple hours, so I guess now is as good a time as any to think about some introspection done.
The assignment: figure out what I want to leave behind, what I want to take with me and what I want to add to my life in 2009.
*I actually ran out of time so the work was done at her house and now I share with you, dear friends and readers*
It would seem simple to decide what you want to leave behind. Every year obviously comes with its struggles; personally I’d like to leave all of those things in the past. Of course you can truly only leave behind what you can honestly let go of. Other things will continue to be a work in progress. The trick is figuring out which is which…
In order to answer these questions, I have to look at some landmark events of 2008. There was the Know More Media layoff *cries* which of course ended up being bittersweet. I loved the job, but it had become time to move on. I might not have done it so quickly, had I not been forced to by suddenly becoming unemployed.
Interestingly, I also became super productive. Not that I hadn’t been productive in my job, but I had gotten into a bit of a rut (it’s so hard to admit that) and being productive on a day job – no matter how much you love it – is not the same as being productive on something you decided to do…just because. I had never felt tied to a desk with KMM, I could work from anywhere. But when I was laid off, I had nothing but time to write, read and find a job…quick.
While money seemed to be running out, somehow all the essential bills kept getting paid, thanks to a few friends and people who showed me that I do have real friends. My grandmother was also a huge help, picking up whatever slack she could, all the while encouraging me to continue my pursuit of music blogging and publishing career. In fact she was one of my main sponsors when I made my trips to Seattle and San Franscisco in September and August. And just when all of my resources seemed to dry up, the right opportunity appeared, and new resources came right along with it.
All in all when I think about all I went through in 2008, all of the trials and triumphs, starting a new year presents a sense of freshness. I could easily have gone into the new year depressed and bitter, desperately hoping for something better. Instead I started the new year knowing I am on the path to my vision and that I was already blessed. I was already beginning to manifest my destiny.
As part of that manifestation, I know I must leave behind poverty: literally and figuratively. Its time for me to leave behind that poverty consciousness, being in a place of lack and limitation. I am always scraping by, no savings to speak of, no investments, no real assets. This is something I want to grow out of and not by buying things I can’t afford, but by paying off my debt, create residual income flow, and generally become financially healthy as I also become mentally and spiritually healthy.
I’m also planning to leave behind some of this emotional baggage I’ve picked up over the years, from relationships past. This one also coincides with my spiritual growth because its all about being in the present moment; not past, not future. Being in the present will help me to rid myself of any toxicity from the past, by enabling me to be in a place to forgive people unconditionally.
A few things I want to take into the new year are my new verve for life and the whirlwind of the new love I am experiencing. I believe a large part of why 2008 was more up than down for me, despite the financial struggles, was my shift in spiritual awareness. When I finally realized where my spiritual stagnation lied, I was able to let it go and move on to something better. At the time I didn’t know what that better thing was but I could feel myself being released into the next phase of life; emerging from my cocoon.
I have several goals for the year, projects I want to work on rather. One is to complete my application to the LSE/USC Global Communications Masters Program. I was supposed to apply last year, but it was obviously not the right time for that and here I have another opportunity to achieve this goal.
And even though its a bit late, I want to begin a 365 blogging project, meaning I will make sure to write a blog post, either here or on ShePlaysMusic.com, or both every day for the rest of the year. Ideally, I’ll do both, but I have to be realistic and know that sometimes one of them is not going to get updated on a certain day, and I’m ok with that.
Finally, and certainly not to be scoffed at is my spiritual homework assignment for the year. A few weeks ago we meditated on a theme for the year and I thought my word was prosperity. Apparently that was more about what I was hoping to get as opposed to what my word/theme really was. This weekend, while at dinner with friends, discussing the assignment, I was digging through angel/inspiration cards and pulled double clarity. So my quest this year is about clarity.
So everyday I will explore this word in anagram, giving each day a word for each letter of the root word, clarity. This fits well with my intention to blog here everyday and you, my friends and readers, will see as I embark upon this spiritual journey.
Here’s to the new year, letting go of the old, and embracing the new.
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