Oh no, not again…

It’s sad when you do nothing all day and you still forget to post a blog.

Yep, that’s what happened yesterday.

Well…not literally nothing, but it’s not like I was super busy and didn’t have time. I just…forgot. And you know what? I’m not going to beat myself up about it. The real goal is to write every day and that I didn’t forget. I’m also not giving up. I may miss a day here or there, but I’m still determined to get through this blasted 365 project.

I won’t call it a fail because I’ve posted more days than I haven’t, and I plan to keep it that way. I’d much rather post when I have something to say, but since the goal is to write every day and using this blog is a good way to keep myself accountable, I won’t use the I don’t have anything to say cop-out.

I’m sure there will be other missed days, but I’m going to keep on plugging along.

Who’s with me!

Tags: 365 Fail, 365 Project, Goals, Writing

This 365 thing is tough

Man, this 365 thing is really tough. I’ve already missed two days, both times because I simply forgot to post something. Almost did the same thing tonight except I woke up so I could write something for this blog.

Is that really what I want? Is this 365 blogging project worth waking up in the middle of the night just to write about how I woke up in the middle of the night because I almost forgot to write and post?

Like I said. It’s tough.

Probably better to find something throughout the day that really inspired me or made me think. Better to find something throughout the day worth writing about. Maybe that way, I won’t forget and I won’t just ramble on in circles and things will be more interesting.

Tomorrow is another day.

Tags: 365 Fail, 365 Project, Goals

A Lession in Yearing with Caution

Ok so I missed another day. This 365 blogging is hard. I just forgot to post anything on Sunday. I am here today though, with bad news…

I didn’t get the apartment I wanted. le sigh

Thing is, it was a great apartment, in a quiet building, in a central location, brand new school a block away…I was perfect for mama and boy. Risky proposition though I may be – what with my crappy credit and all – she’d have worked with me…if only I had the money to move right away.

She was losing money everyday it was empty. She wanted to give it to me, but there was no way she could wait…not until March…not a month! To be honest it was a bit bold for me to ask. I’m talking prime real estate at a fantastic price.

I so wanted that to be the one.

Alas it was not or I would be celebrating…

I almost talked myself into wasting mine and her time by pretending I could come up with the money to move by February 1 – two weeks – when I have $200 in the bank and no real way of coming up with total move in costs.

The call was dropped as she gave me a glimmer of hope…I called back…If I could move in on the first it was mine. I could pay the holding fee, but if I wasn’t able to move by the first, I lost the apartment and the fee.

I wanted it…In my head it was mine.

“Ok,” I said. “I’ll come up with the money.”

She waffled, “Let me think about it…er…sleep on it. I’ll call you in the morning.”

I started thinking. Where was I realistically going to come up with $2200 in two weeks? I didn’t have any money saved and…well…let’s just say it was out of my current financial purview and I didn’t want to beg borrow and steal to pretend it was.

I called back after talking it over with my grandmother.

“I can’t realistically move by the first, so I don’t want to waste your time or my money…”

“I told you it was risky…” she said in an understanding tone.

“Thank you so much for your willingness.”

We said mumbled and awkward good-byes. My heart broke just a little.

I may have been yearning for that apartment all weekend, seeing myself living there already, but I had to exercise caution, lest that yearning make me do something stupid. If I had been prepared, I would have gotten what I wanted.

C’est la vive

Tags: 365 Fail, Apartment Hunting, Desire, Moving